Boredom, my nemesis

Do you wonder when its about that time, "Am I hungry right now or just bored? Should I eat something or should I wait until I'm certain I'm hungry?" You look at your watch and you think, well, if I wait much longer it will screw up my dinner, and I wouldn't want to do that, but then you remember that you're not hungry in the first place. You don't even have anything in mind, and in reality you only feel like you should be eating something. I think this is not hunger but boredom disguised as my appetite, and I curse my idleness.

"Why can't you be doing something else?" I ask myself but then I answer, "I'd rather be eating," then the whole cycle repeats because you are still not hungry! So you busy yourself with tasks but your mind occasionally drifts towards your stomach, waiting for hunger's earliest signs. You are about to take a sip of water but you realize that might trick your stomach so it believes its full. Then you wonder, have I already had too much water and now my belly is full of what it will discover isn't nourishment, and should I wait until then or will it be too late? I wonder what I mean, "too late," since I have no engagements and can eat when the time comes. But then I think, "What about dinner?"

Then you realize you are being ridiculous! It is simple, if you are hungry, then eat! What's the big deal? It's just food, anyway, its not like you don't eat at least three times a day! Then you wish you could pass on the responsibility to feed yourself, because apparently you can't seem to make any decision on the matter! Then you wonder, what does that say about you as an individual of a species if you fail on the most basic survival level? Maybe its not really my fault but I am merely a victim of my capitalist society?

Your heart stops and you ask, "Was that really hunger?" because at this point, you might interpret a toe ache as hunger.

"Screw it," You smile and open the fridge door.


Not like this ever happens to me or anything... I was just wondering ;)